Tuesday, September 25, 2007 9/25/2007 10:34:00 PM
living in a world full of sarcasms. and people pretends to have virtues without showing any helping hands for one another. Thus, this feeling sucks big time. what i have to do now is to be optimistic as expecting the most favorable moments will eventually come. There are many thing words couldn't describe how i feel excatly, and that's really pissed me off. i simply don't understand by telling me "so did i learn my lesson?" Yes!? i did! or did i? thing don't really goes smoothly without anyone guiding you. i'm a no more baby, it's true there's no need to guide for real! But, don't come blaming me and stuff without knowing what excatly took place. different people have different charater. i have mine. it diffcult to handle me.. but i easy to guide me through. perceive with my ears is what i can and could only do right now! it's impossible for me to learn as fast but i do have the heart to learn. i contributed myself to it and i hope there be something back for me. despite that. i got unpleasant situation back at me. i understand it easy to push thing around but i hate to do that myself. avoiding problems won't solve but it might increased the matter rising and not coming down.

illumination needed urgently